In the recent issue of Esquire magazine, the beautiful Cara Delevingne opens up about a number of topics. According to the British star, there was a time she “didn’t want to exist anymore.” She said, “When it got to being a teenager and all the hormones and the pressure and wanting to do well at school I had a mental breakdown.”
“I was suicidal. I couldn’t deal with it anymore. I realized how lucky and privileged I was, but all I wanted to do was die. I felt so guilty because of that and hated myself because of that, and then it’s a cycle. I didn’t want to exist anymore. I wanted for each molecule of my body to disintegrate. I wanted to die.”
She goes on to talk about her dislike for medication. Though she credits medicine for saving her life, one day when she was 18 she stopped taking them. “And that week, I lost my virginity, I got into fights, I cried, I laughed. It was the best thing in the world to feel things again. And I get depressed still but I would rather learn to figure it out myself rather be dependant on meds, ever.”
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